Finally, I sold a few books online today. It was a great and wonderful blissful feeling. Such a small accomplishment but it felt grander than winning a debate. I am thankful to my husband for always sending me waves of encouragement. This has kept me standing strong. I am thankful to my two daughters, young as they are, for being sources of whimsical inspiration...I have always kept the child in me but getting to know the child in them brings me to an all time high. If there's ever such as thing as triple happiness, that would be it.
Looking back at how all this started and how it all restarted, it was a pretty long journey. Way back in college, I have always dreamed of having a bookstore. It was my romance with books, in a way. In fact when I told my friends about Pomatomom's Bookshop, they said "Finally, your dreams have come true!". Of course, not everyone knows why I suddenly had the nerve to jumpstart. After all, it has long been relegated to a wishlist for more than ten years. The answer to that is simply this- I had to be shaken to awaken.
For the longest time, I have kept a list of the lives I wish I had, the lives I wanted to live, even part time. For the longest time, I have kept a list of 50 things I wanted to do before I go to heaven (didnt want to say die, because that was too limiting...lol). For the longest time, I have kept a list, a long list of things I was grateful for. I kept them for year because I wanted to remember long after my memory bleeps on me. But why now? Was it the thyroid scare? I suppose it accounted for a great chunk even though looking back it didnt seem as threatening. Yes I had a moment! I thought if not now? then when? And if I wanted to see my children grow to be the best people they could be, shouldnt the lessons come from someone who had their own journey towards fulfillment ? Shouldnt it come from someone who had their share of trying, failing and picking things up again? The answer is not absolute. I could be wrong too. But at that precise moment, I am reminded of a lesson I learned halfway through my life. I cant give them what I dont have.
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